I like to meditate. I wish I had one of those machines that measure brain waves, to see which states I actually manage to achieve.
I don’t know how it is for other people, but when I’m meditating, it kind of feels like an engine; that I’m the engine, and when I begin to meditate, I’m on the highway. You know, that speed when you set your cruise control.
At first it feels as though I become aware of my current speed, like glancing at the speedometer, so to speak. As I continue, sometimes it feels like I simply turn off cruise control, and begin to coast, gradually slowing down. If it’s a short session, that’s about the extent of it most of the time.
During longer meditation sessions, something else happens. As I ‘coast’ to slower speeds, at some point, I feel a ‘downshift’ in my consciousness where my body ‘drops’ into an even deeper relaxation, and at the same time, my consciousness feels like it ‘shifts’ into a different gear.
If I allow myself to shift low enough, I often fall asleep. This irritates me, because sleeping is not what I want to do, and I rarely, if ever, recall my dreams, so I don’t gain any benefit from it, save having a little more energy due to my nap. I’m not sure how to prevent the switch from meditation to sleep… it happens without my knowledge. I often hear instructions about not letting yourself get too comfortable, but if I can’t get comfortable, if I constantly have to hold my head up, my spine straight, my hands on my knees… I can’t relax. I feel constant tension; especially in my neck and shoulders.
If any of you readers have any suggestions, I’d love to hear them.
Sometimes I wish I could meditate all day. If you’ve ever started surfing the web, and look up to find two or three hours have gone by… it’s like that, except I’m surfing the Inner-net. (Hold that thought, while I rename my blog post!)
Much like the internet, I never know where my Inner-net will take me. I search it for information, for help, for fun… and sometimes I finish my ‘surf session’ happy with what I found, while other times I’m frustrated because I couldn’t find what I was looking for.
It doesn’t really feel like there was an actual point to this post, other than to share what was on my mind.
What about you? What do you experience when you meditate? Has your experience changed over time, with practice? I would love to hear about your experiences! Feel free to post in the comments OR create a post on the topic on your own blog, and link to this post.