Yesterday, I spoke about a fairly radical concept- the idea that the humans who hurt us the most are inhabited by the souls which love us the most. I understand that this can be a difficult premise to get behind. It’s an if/then scenario, which only works if you believe that within us all is a pure, divine Being.
After I wrote that post, I sat with the idea, ‘feeling it out’ beyond the initial inspiration (you see, I write for you guys as it comes to me… I meant it when I said you were sharing this journey with me!), and I got an even deeper insight into what this means…
If I concede that the people who have hurt me, some terribly so, did so because of a ‘soul agreement’ entered into before our arrival on this plane, then there’s another major counter-argument to this concept which I hadn’t even thought about:
Every awful thing I had ever done to someone else would then have to be the result of a soul agreement as well.
Now, obviously, I don’t say this as an excuse to simply go around being an asshole and say, “Weeell, we must have had a soul agreement!” I would hope it stands to reason that anyone searching for a way to find forgiveness within themselves for those who have harmed them wouldn’t do such a thing.
No, what this means is that the same concept which freely offers a means of forgiveness for those who have hurt me, is the very same concept which offers a means to forgive myself for the hurt I have caused.
Am I the only one who finds the idea of forgiving myself for the harm I have done to others even more difficult to accept than forgiving them for harm done to me? Difficult, but amazing!
All of the guilt, all of the mental anguish I put myself through, I can release. All of the things I tell myself I ‘don’t deserve’ because of the hurt I have caused others… I can now allow, because with that single concept, I am granted the same pardon which I give to others.
That’s a helluva concept, indeed.