I have a bad habit of being extremely defensive, and tend to be a bit… reactive. Those knee-jerk reactions that are usually uncalled for, and usually waaay out of proportion to the stimulus. I have allowed myself to become extremely reactive, and instead of formulating an appropriate response to the situation, I snap at people, or bark commands/demands, and basically, act like a jerk.
I can look at what triggers these responses, and understand why I do them, but understanding the why doesn’t stop the behavior. It’s become ingrained, and I don’t care for it, so I have been trying to become aware of it and either stop it before it begins, or at least stop it as soon as I realize what I’m doing… which is really making it obvious to me just how often I do this… which is way too often.
In other words, I am currently working on establishing a ‘higher self’ response system, rather than the ‘lower self’ responses, like anger and impatience, which I’ve allowed to control my behavior for much longer than I should’ve!
What about you? I’d love to hear what types of things you’re working on right now! If you have a moment, let me know in the comments below!