So, I’ve just had a revelation.
All day long, I walk around telling everyone ‘Sorry’, or ‘Excuse me’, or ‘Pardon me’. Constantly. I’m apologizing for bumping into people, for being too cheerful, for not walking fast enough when someone holds the door open for me, for dropping the F-bomb on my own blog; it feels like I’m always apologizing. Why?
Just today, I was on Facebook *shudder* and saw a post by an acquaintance about some car troubles they’d had. I commented regret that they were not having an enjoyable experience, then spun a lovely story, portraying the couple laughing about this and many other trials they will experience during their time together… and at the end, caught myself about to apologize.
For refusing to lower my own vibration in order to commiserate with them? For taking time from my day to craft a beautiful linguistic picture of joy and happiness especiallyfor her? For daring to speak my truth from a place of love and gratitude, instead of from a place of frustration and lack? For daring to show others that they don’t have to look at life as the enemy?
I have quoted my comment here, in all its unapologetic glory (well, except that one apology there at the beginning… and the one at the end… I forgot about them… but, case in point):
I’m sorry that your experience was unpleasant in the moment… but one day, when you are old, and you guys have been together so long that you start looking like one another… you will look back on the early days of your time together, back to this day that you just couldn’t seem to catch a break, but you worked together, and you survived, and you guys were SO aggravated… and it was just AWFUL… but you had each other, and no matter how bad it seemed, you knew you’d get through, because you were still together… and you will laugh. And you will smile knowingly at one another, remembering all the storms of life you’ve weathered together since then, some more difficult, more painful than this day, and some less so, but through them all, you each knew you would make it through… together. You will look back and recall it fondly because you will see only the love. Time will fade the sharp edges of the experience, and it will blur the frustration, blinding you to all but the love and admiration you hold for one another.
Or you could skip the wait, and just laugh about it now.
Just sayin’. 🙂
All the love, friend. Truly. Sorry your day was so unpleasant!
I’m not sorry for my point of view. I’m not sorry that I vibrate on an energetic level that annoys the piss out of people. I’m not sorry that I refuse to get drunk with others on wine wrought from sour grapes.
Okay. Whoa, Nellie. Getting a little belligerent, there. It’s true, though. I’m tired of apologizing for being exactly who and how I want to be– for not being who, what, and how anyone else desires me to be. (And for the record, this is not a rant, because this person became offended at my words… quite the opposite, in fact. This person has not replied at all, because I just wrote it. If I am ranting, it is only with exuberance for my new point of view. I am not angry or upset, though my words may s– OH, HEY, LOOK… ANOTHER APOLOGY… RIGHT EFFIN THERE! TRYING TO SNEAK ITS WAY IN… not gonna happen. Not today).
Those that think they know me have NO idea of what’s coming. Hell, I have no idea what’s coming. Every day I wake up excited. Thrilled. Curious. Wondering what little Easter Eggs (in the gamer sense) the Universe has planned for me today.
This is exciting stuff, people. Life changing stuff. It is my dearest hope that my words extend out into the Universe, touching the hearts that are ready for them, and preparing the way for the messenger of the hearts that aren’t.
My every post on this blog is a call to my tribe. Every person I bump into, every face I see, I feel my soul asking, over and over, are you in my tribe? Do you speak my language? And now, I’m beginning to listen for a reply.
My eyes and ears are being opened. The way is clear. The truth is undeniable. The light washes my soul; bathing it in pure love and acceptance.
There is excitement in the air. Can you feel it?