Why do I feel bad?
Because I feel unappreciated. That word doesn’t convey the right meaning. I feel… devalued. Disrespected. Discarded. Unseen.
What do I want to feel?
Valued. Cared for. Appreciated. Like I matter more than what I can do for you when you’re in a bind. Like I matter to you.
Why do I want to feel valued?
Because that’s why we came here. To have loving relationships and interactions with each other. Because I value you, and want to feel valued, in return.
Okay. There was going to be more to that whole exercise, but I finally have my peace, and it’s late and I’m tired… but don’t worry, I’m going to wrap this up for you guys, too. I won’t leave you hanging.
So, I was in the middle of typing my answer to the second question when it dawned on me… if everything is a mirror, maybe I haven’t been showing this friend that I value them? Maybe they express and receive validation differently than I do, and all this time, we’ve just been showing each other we cared in the wrong ‘dialect’ so to speak.
If I can make peace with my father, this is cake. And this is the same realization I had with him. It’s me. They’re mirroring me.
I need to be the change.
Tomorrow, I will be the change, as I navigate through any residual negative energy flow as a result of my previous point of attraction, fully aware that any negativity I perceive is simply the last of the old, draining away.
I am at peace.
Namaste & Blessed be, friends.
Thank you for holding space for my expansion. ❤