I have a bad habit of being extremely defensive, and tend to be a bit… reactive. Those knee-jerk reactions that are usually uncalled for, and usually waaay out of proportion to the stimulus. I have allowed myself to become extremely reactive, and instead of formulating an appropriate response to the situation, I snap at people, or bark commands/demands, and basically, act like a jerk.
I can look at what triggers these responses, and understand why I do them, but understanding the why doesn’t stop the behavior. It’s become ingrained, and I don’t care for it, so I have been trying to become aware of it and either stop it before it begins, or at least stop it as soon as I realize what I’m doing… which is really making it obvious to me just how often I do this… which is way too often.
In other words, I am currently working on establishing a ‘higher self’ response system, rather than the ‘lower self’ responses, like anger and impatience, which I’ve allowed to control my behavior for much longer than I should’ve!
What about you? I’d love to hear what types of things you’re working on right now! If you have a moment, let me know in the comments below!
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“Higher self response” love it! I’ve been working on speaking up and communicating my truth, especially with loved ones. It has definitely taken a lot of conscious and mindful effort, but I’m getting to a point where I hardly have to remind nor affirm myself and my responsibility to speak my truth anymore. I have my days, of course, in which I simply don’t have the space or energy to share myself, and I recognize that’s perfectly okay.
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Lol… I hear that! It’s funny, it all started for me with the realization that I was able to speak MY truth… I didn’t HAVE TO shrink myself, I was choosing to do so (out of ignorance, but still a choice), and choosing to be unhappy about that, instead of fixing it… now that I’m fixing it, SPEAKING my truth has taken a back burner to discovering my truth… and RECREATING my truth, to maintain my well-being. The post I published today is the next step I took/am taking in that department.
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Yes! It’s always a choice. I also really appreciate that you say you’re now “recreating” your truth to maintain your wellbeing. It’s similar to what I talk to clients about the various stories we tell ourselves, the ones that keep us down, hold us back, and instill victimhood. Are the stories serving us or not? Are we willing to let go of those stories and tell them in a way that supports our growth? Looking forward to reading it! 🙂
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Well, I hope you got a chance to read it, and that you enjoyed it! I’ve been more absent than present these last two or three weeks, so I’m not completely up to speed on who has seen/read what yet, lol.
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Attempting to remember to tamp down my annoyances with mom and the surrounding crap. I do say things out of her hearing/sight and it makes me feel slightly better. I know she is tired and frustrated and letting her do more than she should is necessary. Frustrating, but necessary. It is easier than it has been. I recall two summers ago, I thought I should get a tongue stud for the hole I had bit in it!
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Oh yes! Those days of frustration can be SO overwhelming! But I am thrilled to hear that things are getting a little easier/better these days!
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